Heads or Tails :) Buying into it or not?

Whew...That is basically the feeling I get from deep within my soul.. Change is on the rise and we have no way to stop this. We can either learn to go with the natural flow of ebb and flow or we can take a back seat and drift along.. which ever it is that you can deal with the best is what I would say to go with.. Natural essence of who we are no matter what degree we are looked at this whole conjunction.. I would like to take you on a small walk with me into the garden of my own inner soul existence. comprising your own self by selling yourslef short to the dollar is not what I will ever do. As I have said my own inner soul journey, I f it is not in alignment of who I truly AM .. I cannot/will not sell out to have a image of some degree to be on the surface some body. I do not do free consultations or guidance to "look" and be "appreciated" by others. My main focus is for the "light" wihtin to rise and raise to be heightened by the true existance fo who I am.. creator is not asking us to sell out of soul, to be have, or be with amounts of individuals that are self absorbed in one way or another. I am here tp stand firm, and stand tall and not go along with every little flutter that passes with an Idea, or theme. I Know that our own Truth is mainstream and not just a fly by and intermitted by our own "ego".
Ego is really grand right now, it is really becomming my best friend, we are getting to know eachother what one would need to have there friend beside them. I will not create a fear or scare others by sounding as if I am a alarm for them inside their own soul.. I cannot make this about them, it is about me. It is about the reason for me to connect with my own inner self at many levels.
I have been connected to my own God energy for over 3 years now, I realised what it was I was here for. I am to lead my own way and be my own driver and no need to have to incorprate everything else in my vessel. I am here to visit and expereince the very heart of who and what makes me tick. How to live a life free from restrictions that leave me buried under all the rubbish that has been on top. I have also freed my own inner soul not by religion either. I do not have to put a label on God. I do not have to prove by words alone that I am God oriented. Or if my beief is with God in God. I have witnessed lately some people that are so unhappy and so needing to say they are christen inorder to be okay with themselves. As if they need appproval from God that they used the word christsen. Now they are 100% alright. They do not lie, they do not fall on any level? right.. because they have the word christsen beside them. They wear a cross around their own neck, they feel so much better now.. They walk the great walk. Talk the great talk? Now, I am wondering do they do this everyday? all day? 7/24? Or is this something they have been groomed into and taught eons ago and have stuck with it. They ave been "programmed" to say, be, and just maybe, it is not their fault, they just do not know any better. They do not know that God is of all, God is you, and me. He is not in a name, but of Truth.
Imagine, God is not just a religion, not just a book that has been written by some many others. interuppted in so many ways it is not funny:) God is everything and all.
Just think what if the real work required us to take time to start going within and rewriting our very own views that we have been living by? what if it required you to stop right now!! and go deep within your own soul and "see" what it is that is really there.
what if you do not have what you want right now based on the fact that you are required to make a CHANGE. Not just alittle one, or one that is not visible so much to the human eye.
You may even say how the heck can I do that? where do I begin? How do I begin? what does it take? The answer if very easy!!!
STOP TRYING TO CONTROL YOUR OWN LIFE. listen to your very own inner voice. The one who has been there all along. The one that is wanting to step up to you and speak to you at all levels. I do not want to be known as the best author or the best soul guidance teacher or what have you. I want to be the very best to myself. I do not need a title to be more or less.
This is feeding the ego at many levels when we do not let it happen naturally. When we set out to search and push and try it never will be natural the way it is provided.
I cannot do this and will not ever just let the finacial aspect of who I am to lead me.
Money is an illusion that has had many temptations added to it. I want to be rich within my own existance and rich to the joy of love and life. The money part will be there because that is not my focus. It is just apart fo me.
You have to change everything about yourself starting with the way you view yourself. or other people. If you judge them based on your own insecurity than that will be what you are left with .. I communicate with my higherself as this is who I am and I live this way every day. I breathe based on change. I love based on change.
You cannot force anything to be, if you do this will only leave a really bad taste in your own mouth. being positive should be natural as well. Being healthy is based on your other levels, mental, emotional, spiritual. If these are not being taken care fo in such as way to acknowledge them on a daily basis than you will not be complete.
If I spell words wrong or mix letters up that is apart fo my own process, I will not redo them. It is how I am to write this, so if you see that just know I am channeling in the moment and am not concerned about being such a perfectionist with that:)
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angel hugs,
-Donna