Counter Productive

At last the single most intimate details seems to falling at our fingertips. Unlike having many circumstances rule your understanding. I hope you were able to understand the first 2 sentences or they rang true for you. I do get that alot where I do my prayer work in the morning and give many thanks to my higher self and everything that is attached and than" boom" I get these phrases or messages that seem to spill right out. I do not always know right in that moment what they mean until I open myself up to the higher understanding.

This makes one sometimes ignite the internal fame that seems to wither down at times. I am looking forward to a very new project that seems to be taking place within me. I am not quite sure exactly what that means yet, But I have had repetitous notions that seems to just keep showing up at my soul door. New is a great sign for me right now as I am stepping into new shoes, and that is at first to be honest alittle scary, Yet as I turn that key word around "scary" into exciting adventure that allows more of a free flow of energy to submit in. Healing has been working all weekend for me, I have had some blocks having to do with Love, I have wanted to feel Love in a more pronounced way, deeper levels, and in doing so I have acknowledged that Love in the heart chakra requires to clear many levels that seem to have caked debri and old ways of thinking and painful hurts that have stayed in there for so long. Do you ever notice the way you feel when you love? Do you really love intensely or do you just feel as if it is apart of you and it is Lacking something more inside? I have for a long time, Ihave wanted to love longer without conditions, I have wanted to Love harder and more passionately, I have wanted to Love from a very unconditonal spot within. We can change the very core of who we are with just a flip of the switch, yes it is completely so.. Yet there is a degree of complete get down and dirty roll up your sleeves, and get moving that si required for this work to take place. You would have to get to a palce of surrendar that is a definite and know now you will have to let go all that you believed inorder to make these new changes stick, this takes a great deal of work, sometimes even alittle "ouch" feeling inside..
Making changes is not easy at first at all, it is a passion that is continous, you cannot start, stop and make it happen when it is convient it is a all or nothing task. This is a day and night and night and day shift into consciousness. You want Love and Truth in it than you have to start doing the work, and really acknowledge what it is that you want to be apart of. I will not tolerate anything in my life that is upsetting to me, I will not tolerate many things any longer it is just enough to set me off balance enough for me to really look at what needs to be shifted inside of myself what is looking to be cleared away and acknowdged. Many passge ways will open up once you make that committment. This is your choice and you are the only one that can make a difference.
My guidance has been really making "known" to me that I need to really utilize the what I know and make things happen. Pushing through as giving birth. Somtimes it is painful and alot to digest all at once. Yet it is beautiful as well .. So it may take me a few hours, days, weeks to get through it.
Journey... Ah YOu have to love it:)