Peek into 11's Soul

Does one believe that all can be had at once and you can really participate in a "Have it all Journey"I AM a living proof. I have had since 2000, one,two,three, and on and on it goes treasures presented to me. I will begin today with my Journey into the center of the 11's soul and what transpired for me on every escapade. I had been married for 11 years and had been with my former husband four years prior so that was a total of 15 years with Frank. I was 24 when I married and I had a child the next year. A brillant little girl Klarissa Marie what a sight for heavenly eyes... I felt happy I had more than most had in the beginning but, Felt there was more inside , more of a taste of life more of Truth and passion. I felt bored I was a stay at home mommy with many ideas brewing and kept busy with interior decorating and fell upon a business opportunity that was blooming with a CEO of a company, International Polymer Technologies. This woman had 2 sides to a spectrum a business typhoon and a under handed crook..imagine double edged sword very common:) But, there was a connection with her a strong one and not sure exactly where and why ??? and she really believed in me as if she knew me forever and ever especially for her company, she had a million dollar company wih many explicit vendors. from Estee Lauder to David Davidorff. Landing one deal on top of another and she wanted me to represent her under her wing..exciting yes, but, yet felt that connection as a door opening to a twilight zone..I designed in a huge barn in a rural area as a hidden unknown secret being kept. We began to hire others to join in and design as well. Yet, I was still bored, and felt I should be happy and thrilled with the ride I am on, a wife, and mother, Time drifted on and upward and I had a so so relationship with my family, we had our disagreements but yet we always seemed to mend those fences alittle broken but yet worth fixing. 4 years later I had a little boy, I said by 30 I should have another one for Klarissa to have a sibling. Was I ready? I do not think I was ever ready just followed the beat of the way, Lorenzo was born on Halloween 1996 at 11:11pm. I said to myself that time seems significant or it really represents something, Where does that fit into something? Felt a huge connection to that number. Still at that time just moved on and upward.. Lorenzo cried for 2 years due to reflux and an uncomfortable sense of who he was, little did I know a cry for the world. A cry for peace and much much more, now today I see what it all correlates too.. I still was married and he worked relentless hours and days and we just faded out, like a vibrant color being washed out. We put on our masks of happiness and contentment but, I could tell I needed to move out of the space some how. I will make a jump here into a different light so bare with me, and will weave my way back into the story. My Gifts as I know them today had always been with me, I had a strong sense or desire to always feel what others felt. Either going through or what they felt at the moment. I could see past the issues and always felt a sense of panic. I just knew things not just things.... but, people not justin this lifetime, but from other ones... What was I????? where did I come from? Am I real ???or am I just made up as a character in a show? I always had a presence around me, a band wagon of high spirited souls. "Troopers" and they would calvary around me as in a family atmosphere. They were my family. Yet who AM I ? The year 2000 was a year that changed my life forever. I lost everything and my sanity too. My marriage, my home, my family, my area of living, my friends, a whole new location of life opened. I felt dispare, and confused,Yet the part of me that had that very soul connection to all the band of spirited souls "pushed" me up the hill. Not just alittle but literally catapulted me into a new life. A new everything. I landed in Florida, with no one and nothing ..Not even a Job with the 2 young children. I had been a stay home mommy, designing at leisure not having too. I had to now become what I most disliked. I had to find a nitch a block of some sort. Where and how? no friends,or family a lost situation. I had to make leaps and have a whole lotta faith. Did my faith in what I belived should always be fail me? Maybe...Or did I already plan all this out on a soul level? maybe... But I made it through the rain, rain of tears on all levels. happy, sad, joy, anger, I had began my "real journey" into the heart of what I know today as the True Divine Donna. Just when I thought it was all over and I had lost everything. The dawn of a New Age for me.